Week 42: Lack Of Mental Resolve?

OK, so I might not have paid much attention this week to tracking my food. And I might have gained a little weight as a result. But I enjoyed every minute of it!

No seriously, I'm a little bummed about it. I feel like I am constantly taking two steps forward and then one big step backwards. This week I gained 1.3 lbs. AHHHHHHHH!

Of my three goals (quit smoking, lose 50 lbs, and run an ultramarathon), the losing weight goal has been by far the hardest. Yes, quitting smoking was difficult while going through it, but it is over now and I don't even think about smoking. And as for training for the ultramarathon, I love every minute of it.

But losing 50 lbs is a different story. It's hard. It is something that I struggle with every day, throughout the day. I love the taste of food. I like to drink a few beers. I like dessert. I like hamburgers and hot dogs and all the awesome stuff you can cook on a barbecue. I think the challenge with my weight is more of a mental issue than a physical one. I lack the mental resolve to do what I know I need to do. I can't seem to get control of it.

I just need to keep at it.

I can do this.

Reset... again.

Weight Loss Summary

• Week 01: Lost 4.0 lbs
• Week 02: Lost 3.1 lbs, 07.0 lbs total, 3.5 lbs per week
• Week 03: Lost 2.6 lbs, 09.7 lbs total, 3.2 lbs per week
• Week 04: Lost 2.0 lbs, 11.7 lbs total, 2.9 lbs per week
• Week 05: Lost 1.6 lbs, 13.3 lbs total, 2.7 lbs per week
• Week 06: Lost 1.5 lbs, 14.8 lbs total, 2.5 lbs per week
• Week 07: Gained 0.4 lbs, 14.4 lbs total lost, 2.1 lbs per week
• Week 08: Lost 3.1 lbs, 17.5 lbs total, 2.2 lbs per week
• Week 09: Lost 2.2 lbs, 19.7 lbs total, 2.2 lbs per week
• Week 10: Gained 0.9 lbs, 18.8 lbs total lost, 1.9 lbs per week
• Week 11: Lost 3.5 lbs, 22.3 lbs total, 2.0 lbs per week
• Week 12: Lost 2.2 lbs, 24.5 lbs total, 2.0 lbs per week
• Week 13: Lost 0.2 lbs, 24.7 lbs total, 1.9 lbs per week
• Week 14: Lost 1.9 lbs, 26.6 lbs total, 1.9 lbs per week
• Week 15: Lost 0.6 lbs, 27.2 lbs total, 1.8 lbs per week
• Week 16: Gained 0.5 lbs, 26.7 lbs total lost, 1.7 lbs per week
• Week 17: Gained 2.0 lbs, 24.7 lbs total lost, 1.5 lbs per week
• Week 18: Lost 3.3 lbs, 28.0 lbs total, 1.6 lbs per week
• Week 19: Lost 0.3 lbs, 28.3 lbs total, 1.5 lbs per week
• Week 20: Lost 1.7 lbs, 30.0 lbs total, 1.5 lbs per week
• Week 21: Lost 1.6 lbs, 31.6 lbs total, 1.5 lbs per week
• Week 22: Gained 1.1 lbs, 30.5 lbs total lost, 1.4 lbs per week
• Week 23: On holiday break, didn't track
• Week 24: Lost 0.4 lbs, 30.9 lbs total, 1.3 lbs per week
• Week 25: Gained 0.4 lbs, 30.5 lbs total lost, 1.2 lbs per week
• Week 26: Lost 2.6 lbs, 33.1 lbs total, 1.3 lbs per week
• Week 27: Gained 2.0 lbs, 31.5 lbs total lost, 1.2 lbs per week
• Week 28: Lost 1.8 lbs, 32.9 lbs total, 1.2 lbs per week
• Week 29: Gained 2.0 lbs, 30.1 lbs total lost, 1.0 lbs per week
• Week 30: Lost 0.6 lbs, 30.7 lbs total lost, 1.0 lbs per week. 
• Week 31: Lost 1.3 lbs, 32 lbs total lost, 1.0 lbs per week. 
• Week 32: Lost 1.3 lbs, 33.3 lbs total lost, 1.0 lbs per week.
• Week 33: Didn't track.
• Week 34: Didn't track.
• Week 35: Gained 5.0 lbs, 28.3 lbs total lost, 0.8 lbs per week
• Week 36: Gained 1.6 lbs, 26.7 lbs total lost, 0.7 lbs per week
• Week 37: Didn't track.
• Week 38: Gained 0.9 lbs, 25.8 lbs total lost, 0.7 lbs per week
• Week 39: Lost 0.5 lbs, 26.3 lbs total lost, 0.7 lbs per week
• Week 40: Lost 1.1 lbs, 27.4 lbs total lost, 0.7 lbs per week
• Week 41: Lost 1.7 lbs, 28.8 lbs total lost, 0.7 lbs per week
• Week 42: Gained 1.3 lbs, 27.3 lbs total lost, 0.7 lbs per week